For my doctor: These are sea salt sweet potato chips
For my doctor: These are sea salt sweet potato chips

I may or may not have danced with my three-year-old son in the middle of the cereal aisle at Walmart. Let’s just say it was a turning point in our trip to the store that led to such silliness. Minutes before I had smarted off to a woman who said I was in her way. Long story short, after I replayed the quick conversation in my head, she was probably not as rude as I had taken her sound. Yet I was stressed, and her comment was the icing on the cake to get my blood sugar boiling.

Shortly after, I scolded my son for standing in front of the buggy and all but threatened him by the milk freezers. It was true that he was holding everyone up and the reason for me being “in the way,” but then again he is three. He minded me after that and stayed calmly by my side until we got to the cereal aisle. Then, out of the blue, he asked, “Mommy, will you dance with me?” I started to immediately say “no,” thinking that someone else would frown on us taking up all the room.

But not really caring what anyone thinks, regretting getting snappy with my son (and also the woman by now), and feeling pretty hangry, I said “sure.” So we waltzed and swayed in the cereal aisle. Amazingly, nobody came down the aisle for what felt like at least 5 minutes. (Maybe they didn’t want to get near the crazy lady and her kid dancing.) Then a woman turned in and gave us the sweetest smile. I needed that. Not just her smile but also to dance with Lane.

These last few months have been particularly stressful for me. I have had to deal with a lot outside stresses, which I can’t control. My health has not been so well, and my husband and I also work all the time. That is the main reason I haven’t blogged on my own site in two months! I am thankful for all my work, but I often feel guilty. Sometimes I think it would be better for my kids to have one of those mothers who takes them to the library and does Pinterest art projects. Instead they have a mom who works from home and puts on cartoons.

I do plan fun things sometimes for my kids, but I have to make up for it later. I feel like when I am out doing something fun my mind wanders to what all I have to do later. That’s what made me snappy today. I was dreading some things coming up and wondering how I would manage all the tasks I had to do this week. I was even dreading going on vacation next week because of all the things I would have to do to catch up. A good example is that I didn’t even have time to film a promo video for a church event in which I played a stressed mom. (No acting needed there!)

So Lane taught me a valuable lesson today. When we danced over by the Pop Tarts and Frosted Flakes, the only thing on my mind was having fun with my son. I have a lot to do this week, but I plan on having a better attitude about it all. Even concerning the things I can’t control that I am not particularly looking forward to. Dread only makes things worse and steals the joy of the moment.

As for Lane, he got a sucker for being good. He smiled at me with his sticky little face and said, “Mommy, you need a snack.” Yes son, Mommy does need a snack.



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  1. Wow!!! This is great Kaci!!! You’re definitely not alone!!! Just wait until the kids are older!!! Whew man, I catch myself all the time just having to stop and breathe!!!?? I don’t know how I have any nerves left. ? You are great though and I love reading your stories!!!❤️❤️✅ Every now and then, all mamas NEED a SNACK!!!???

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