Regardless of your race, gender, age, location, personality, occupation, NCAA allegiance, or any other defining factor, all Christians have one thing in common. We want to know why God put us on this Earth. Of course the short and always right answer would be to spread His Word and help others. That above all else is why and what we should focus on doing every day. But we often want more explanation for how that should play out in our lives. So the real question we should be asking God is “How do You want me to do what You put me here to do?”
I struggled with this for a large chunk of my life, and it caused me a lot of frustration thanks to my type A personality, desire to please God, and overeagerness to succeed at everything. There are times when I dabbled in different careers or took up new hobbies in hopes of finding that “one big thing” that embodied what Kaci Lane (Handley) Hindman was created to do. That one thing that would make me say “This is it! Nobody else can do this as well as me, and I can do nothing else this well!”
Truth be told, I know the last statement sounds a little cocky. I have since matured and realized that God is the only “wow factor” in any of us that can make anyone do anything special. He also doesn’t make us better than anyone else. Sure, you and I are better than one another in certain areas. But it is God who made us the way we are, and if we ever start thinking we are better than anyone else, then He will probably choose someone else to use. God uses the humble and not the proud. He loves to use those who could never succeed on their own (1 Cor. 1: 27–31).
I know that I am still a work in progress, but I truly believe I am on the path God wants me to be on now instead of the path I had planned for myself. At 33, my life is not what I pictured it to be at this stage 15, 10 or even 5 years ago. It is much better. I could name many reasons why, but it all comes down to the fact that I handed God the reins and quit “trying” all the time. There is a sticky note on my laptop that I read every day. It has written on it an excerpt from a devotional I read about a year ago: Whatever you want, Lord. Show me and I’ll do it. Change me, Lord.
I’ll admit that I was afraid for some time to earnestly pray that prayer. What if God gave me something I didn’t want? But then I got to a point when I was no longer content chasing the accolades I wanted in life. I knew I had grown in the Lord and could only truly be fulfilled if I fulfilled His purpose for me. So I prayed this prayer, begrudgingly at first, but diligently. Then it got easier and easier. He opened doors I never could have on my own, but also shut some doors I was trying to construct just so I could open them. He custom built for me a house with all the doors He saw fit for me.
The neatest part of all this is if you really do want to do God’s will and you get to the point that you put His will above your own in every area, you will feel fulfilled. Amazingly, I learned that God will never give us what we don’t want. Although He may change our desires. It is also never too late to start fulfilling God’s specific purpose for your life.
I plan on writing more blog posts on this topic, as it has brought me true peace, purpose and happiness. Over the next few weeks, I will write about how I came to find God’s will for my life. This includes praying, doing, listening, etc. In the meantime, here is something that encouraged me this morning. God has already nudged me to blog about our purpose, then I randomly saw this on my DVR today. (Lane started back school, and it is the first day I have had time to watch anything not animated!)
Joni Table Talk from Daystar Christian Television had Pat Smith, Emmitt Smith’s wife, as the guest. She talked about second chances. Pat’s testimony is inspiring to all women. Take a look and be blessed.